day 6/100: mixed emotions

Today started off so promising and so awful at the same time. I got up with enough time to do almost my full morning routine, including a 30 minute treadmill walk, which is fantastic, but I’m 10DPO and my BBT took a huge drop, which is a pretty telltale sign that this cycle is another failure. I tried not to think about it too much during the day, but by the time I got home I was too sad to think about attempting my nighttime routine. So that was a huge bust.

Beauty and Health: figure out color season

I legitimately have no clue about what I am. My skin tends to have a neutral yellowy peach tone but I flush red/pink super easily. My natural hair color is a sad dirty blonde but I love dyeing it ginger. Originally I thought I was a warm spring, but I don’t feel like those colors suit me. Now I think I’m a soft summer. Thankfully those colors are already pretty prevalent in my wardrobe, but I have no idea what to do about my hair color. I tried dyeing it a more neutral ash light brown, but it immediately faded to a warm gingery blonde. Again. I think that’s just what my hair wants from me. But then I feel like all of me is the same weird gingery color, it’s too close to my skin color. I don’t know. I’ve got to play around with it some more.

Creativity: plan new sewing projects

I used to sew A LOT back in the day. I worked at a bridal shop, I sewed costumes for theatre productions, I made clothes for myself. Then…I don’t know. I just stopped. In the past few years I’ve made like two things. I want to get back into sewing, so I’m planning out sundresses I can make for my cruise, plus a dress I can wear to the Florence and the Machine concert in April.

Connection: cash in a Maeve coupon

Maeve is a super talented artist, and she gave me the all clear to add a few coupons for this challenge to cash in for artwork during this challenge. I can’t decide what I’ll ask her to draw, but I’ll think of something for sure.

Journaling: how is my heart doing, and what does it need to feel held?

day 5/100: staying upright

I really hate this part of my cycle. My BBT is staying up, but the rest of my body isn’t giving me any hopeful signs. Everyone always says not to think about it, but that’s all I can do.

So anyways.

Beauty and Health: go to bed earlier

I do a horrible job sleeping regularly. I want to be asleep by at least 11:30 every night, but sometimes I fall asleep at 10, sometimes I’m in bed by 11:30 and fall asleep at 2am. Tonight I’m determined to stick to the firm bedtime.

Creativity: start cruise packing list

My dad is retiring in April so for a celebration we’re going on a family cruise on the Disney Treasure for a week in May. It’s crazy- we’ve done more family vacations in the past year than we did in my entire childhood. But it’s giving me something to look forward to, I love writing packing lists and planning outfits.

Connection: make dream plans for Maeve to visit

My best friend Maeve lives across the country and we’re hoping she can come visit me later this year; we’ve chatted about what we want to do when she gets here. I sent her a couple of Tiktoks of fun local places and theme park things. I really hope she’s able to visit.

Journaling: what am I ready to release?